Engage

What is your favorite holiday? I think mine is Halloween. I hope you had a great one, full of spooks and treats. I have been feeling a little slow and dreary lately, and have definitely been dragging my feet here on the blog, with a pitiful 8 posts for the month of October! Thanks for sticking with me. I love this page, and want to keep building the momentum we’ve gained since its origin in March.

October was themed “discovery.” My words on the month were,

“October brings the first brisk bites of fall weather, with the accompanying sense of opportunity. It is a time of year that people consume all sorts of flavors we neglect the rest of the year: apple, pumpkin, nutmeg, mace, squash! The same goes for color and texture. The other day I bought goldenrod high heels and a royal blue velvet clutch. Granted, the purchases were for a specific wedding outfit, but the color and texture were so unlike me! I think I caught a little bit of this autumn influence.”

Ways I was an explorer in my own world:

-I did in fact wear those goldenrod heels and royal blue velvet clutch to the wedding. It was quite a statement. People were referring to me as “the girl in yellow shoes.”

-I tried something very intimidating and started teaching my middle school students how to play guitar. I also taught my intermediate students a Halloween dance that they performed today. And all of it was… okay. It’s been going well. So trying new things pays off.

-I have made a new habit shift and am not snacking incessantly every night. Tip for others trying to limit their snacks: turn the tv off. Find something else to do. I am playing music while I work tonight, and it provides comfort and company without encouraging me to check out for an hour. Rather, I feel more engaged.

-As frustrating as it has been, I have put a hold on personal spending so that I can provide health care for myself and my cat (who is having a hard time lately), so that I can kill my leftover summer debt, and so that I can by that stock I want and start an money market account. Most difficult, I am committing to a summer job, which will turn my normally blissful hot summer days into… a job.

As I look ahead to November, I am thinking of overused words like “self-care” and “presence.” Not that these aren’t important, but it feels like everyone is talking about it and no one is doing it? What do those things even mean? There is a spa down the street from my climbing gym, but the money I would spend there could buy me two personal training sessions. Is the gym my self care? I am so tired after climbing late at night. Should I be relaxing at home instead? But does that really make me feel better??

Those words are too vague to use as my theme, because I need clear direction in these long and dark months. So, my mantra for the month, both here and guiding my everyday practices, will be engage. I strive to be engaged in each task I commit to, and engaged in my life. At work, in my exercises, while I make music, with my partner, with my family. There are a lot of fun and loving ways to connect that I strive to practice this November.

Happy Halloween!
-K

 

The October Roundup:
Wake Me Up When September Ends?
Discovery
Reflections and Intentions
Fall Outfits in Three Moods
Four Things
Weekend Update
The Mysteries and Thrillers My Friends Recommend
The Day After Friday the 13th

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The Day After Friday the 13th

I spent Friday the 13th on a walking ghost tour of Chicago. Walking through the dark and brisk city, imagining a time when fires and 20 feet rivers could wipe out hundreds of people had a hollowing and thrilling effect. Old Chicago legends were debunked and rebunked, and if you’ve ever been on a ghost tour you know what I mean by that. I was familiar with a few stories, including the murder house of H. H. Holmes, because of the brilliant podcast, Lore. These folklore tales are always based in history and documented accounts, but are designed to stimulate your imagination.

Imagine my delight when, on this extremely dark and rainy Saturday the 14th, I discovered that the new Lore tv show was released yesterday! I watched the first episode this morning, and it is the perfect Halloween-season show. I’m all about a terrifying episode of American Horror Story, but Lore is great because it is based in fact, does not exaggerate the already awful events being recounted, and can be watched alone. I can’t really watch American Horror Story or even Black Mirror on my own in the evening because I get freaked out. Lore just made me really really curious. It made me think things like ‘oh my god nighttime before electricity was so scary!’ Back then, if it was windy outside, your candle might go out and you are already afraid of sickness/death/ghosts/demons etc. It’s kind of like the haunted version of drunk history?

Our tour guide described our ghost tour as a moving campfire. We took our spooky stories to the road! The Lore podcast has always been that for me, oral history and scary stories to accompany late night drives. Now these chilly tales will be even better enjoyed from my warm apartment with a cup of hot cider in my hands.

 

 

Six Things

I am so busy right now! I am in meetings all week and very busy getting myself organized when I’m not. Here are six things to give you a little midweek distraction.

 

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Ask-MR-What-If-I-Hate-My-Job-Man-repeller-750x1125.jpgI hate my job. What should I do? Leandra Medine knew exactly what I needed to hear.

“It’s okay not to love every aspect of your job. We’re fed this messaging that work in 2017 is supposed to feel like a Caribbean vacation replete with health daiquiris and photo-taking tutorials, but I wonder if that has completely disillusioned the process of actually, you know, working.”

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Are you following the murder of Kim Wall? I found it deeply disturbing, and decided to learn a little bit more about here. Read some of her work here.

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Have you visited the American Southwest? I lived there for several months and I have vivid dreams about being there still. This travelogue makes me want to visit again.

 

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Thinking ahead to Halloween. I think this would be so fun to make for myself!!

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All of my meals have been very colorful this week! Here is a collection of my Harvest Colors.